Im back

Hello.

Cut the crap : Im back.

I just realise, when I feel crap and like the world seems like its falling into pieces, I feel like blogging. I feel like typing it all out not knowing its the pleasure of letting it out or just wants the world to know I am genuinely feeling really unhappy right now.
I know it is weird to broadcast it to the world, but come on. Living in this era, Im allowed to be a little narcissist about myself la. It is who we are as humans anyways. So why bother judging me when you yourself is too the same.
So WHY AM I UNHAPPY but when if you see me, I'll crack lame jokes to you and make you laugh and trying to be the life of the party when deep inside I dont even feel alive? Honestly I don't know too. I can be really genuinely happy and laughing but in a split moment, I can just feel myself feeling like a downer.
So what is the cause of this? Everything.
Maybe its my body's you know charkra or whatever it is, is not allign properly or something.

I dont know. But I want to be the bubbly me again.

Even in college people thought I got some illness or something. Like seriously, they thought I got like a real illness. I was all pale and drowsy all the time. I lack sleep, food, nutrition, companion, and life.

I've made tumblr,
cause its better than blogger.
If you're clever, you'll find me.
Tell me if you do.

DayTrip , satays, beach & entertainers

Im getting fat. So thats good :) But the same time, Im sick. So sucks to be me at the moment.

PD was horribly polluted. So not much dipping is necessary from my part. Other than that, the day trip went well. :)

Im sick. I'll update better next time.

Adieu.

Carpal tunnel!, exams, life & sponsorship

I need a hand rest.
Like seriously.
Every time I type on the keyboard, my nerve hurt so bad.
And I do use the computer, ALOT.
So this suck.

Using the computer too much
in the wrong way
can cause

CARPAL TUNNEL SYNDROME
OMFG.

Google about it.
I think I might get it one day if I dont get a hand rest.
Because it already starting to hurt.
omg ;O

But lets not talk about it for now ok :)
Its nothing. For now.
I just feel like complaining about it.

Anywho, My life is kind of a boring one.
Im in the middle of the exams.
And Im here blogging.
I ought to study.
But what a few minutes here will do any harm right? :D

You know, holidays havent officially started
but Im already bored at home.
Its a yawn fest.

I sleep ALL the time.

Once, I woke up at 12pm, slept back at 2pm and woke up again at 5.
It was such a productive day for my skin cells to rejuvenate.
Sigh

I need entertainments!
Find me one wont you??

-__-"

Other than that, I dont know what else to complain about anymore.
Im just tired.
I want to graduate and run away from Msia and everyone.
haha
inst that just mean?

I want a scholarship.

Which is shit hard to get.
If i get a scholarship, I can fly next year. :) :)
If not, two years from now.

Anyone wanna sponsor?

Study time.
Adieu bitches :)

Heartache

Wow.

Thanks for that.
It hurts.
But life fucking goes on.

Ouch.

prom, dresses, exams & stress

Im going for prom.

Like finally I decided what the heck :D lalala
Im going dateless but with a bunch of awesome friends.
And someone is nice enough to give me free ticket but I refuse so he wants to sell it for half price or less. Maybe I should just stick with the free part? haha I would to if Im desperate. Which I should be after paying for a dress. as well as Im so dry out of cash! grr

I have to start scouting for dresses :O
Omg. Do I have time? I have exams coming up and prom is like right after exams.!
STRESS.

Im so starting shopping tomorrow. Need to bring some girly friends though. :/ lalala
Im excited for prom. Woot.

Black or Red? Hmm.

Oh well. Have to deal with it tomorrow.

Adieu bitches ;)

Psp, college, trip, and life

Im just so broken hearted.

My psp is not working. And worst, I've been depending on it for college because now that syllabus are all done, im stuck with nothing to do. :( Worst timing la idiot.

Just as I thought Im happy with how things are, this happened. Yer. Life no?

So a quick update of my life.

College :

It had been one of the best times I had. Assignments seem to tone down already as lecturers are now more focus on the final exams. Friends had been awesomely supportive for my lack of preparation for most of my presentations and became my heroes when I needed them the most.
I repay them by making cute gifts for them with big fluffy bows and ribbons and bars of chocolates. So cute la ok. Im proud of it. Taken me the night to finish 3 of them ;D But it was worth it to see the look on their faces. :) I should do more of this. Very satisfying indeed.

Prom is coming up soon. While many begged me to go, some even willing to help me pay a little for my ticket. But yea. Still contemplating. I dont know. :( I want to. But I dont want to also.

Graduation. Not mine but most of my friends. Im attending that for sure :) The last time I'll see you all before everyone of you leave me behind here. *tears*

Another 6 more days of classes before exam and sem break baby. There's class party at the end of class, I wonder are booze allowed? HAHA -.-" everyone want to bring them.

Home:

Life at home is pretty much the same as it is. Im aiming for a dvd player now as Im getting bored with nothing to do. I want to watch more series shows as Im lacking of my doses of them.

Other than that, Im broke, When am I not right? Its the end of the month though, next bank transaction in a few days ;D

Trip update:

I dont know if its even happening at this rate. I have to change the date as some people are flying off to sabah early july. So thats a bummer. So I dont know. Maybe just a trip to pd? -.-"
I really dont know. I have some friends who are organizing a trip to redang for rm380 plus for 3d/2n thing.

lalala. I will make some calls for some reservation and what not. Problem is, are there still people who wanna go. I do. ;/ yer

Me:

Im pretty much the same but different. HAHA bodoh. Im just like that la. Im lazy to type already la.

Adieu bitches :)

Of drowing with assignments

Oh no!
My 1000 words had crashed back to ZERO.

I need 2500 words.
OMG LAH.

I can't finish it in time.
Shit.