Im back

Hello.

Cut the crap : Im back.

I just realise, when I feel crap and like the world seems like its falling into pieces, I feel like blogging. I feel like typing it all out not knowing its the pleasure of letting it out or just wants the world to know I am genuinely feeling really unhappy right now.
I know it is weird to broadcast it to the world, but come on. Living in this era, Im allowed to be a little narcissist about myself la. It is who we are as humans anyways. So why bother judging me when you yourself is too the same.
So WHY AM I UNHAPPY but when if you see me, I'll crack lame jokes to you and make you laugh and trying to be the life of the party when deep inside I dont even feel alive? Honestly I don't know too. I can be really genuinely happy and laughing but in a split moment, I can just feel myself feeling like a downer.
So what is the cause of this? Everything.
Maybe its my body's you know charkra or whatever it is, is not allign properly or something.

I dont know. But I want to be the bubbly me again.

Even in college people thought I got some illness or something. Like seriously, they thought I got like a real illness. I was all pale and drowsy all the time. I lack sleep, food, nutrition, companion, and life.

I've made tumblr,
cause its better than blogger.
If you're clever, you'll find me.
Tell me if you do.

DayTrip , satays, beach & entertainers

Im getting fat. So thats good :) But the same time, Im sick. So sucks to be me at the moment.

PD was horribly polluted. So not much dipping is necessary from my part. Other than that, the day trip went well. :)

Im sick. I'll update better next time.

Adieu.

Carpal tunnel!, exams, life & sponsorship

I need a hand rest.
Like seriously.
Every time I type on the keyboard, my nerve hurt so bad.
And I do use the computer, ALOT.
So this suck.

Using the computer too much
in the wrong way
can cause

CARPAL TUNNEL SYNDROME
OMFG.

Google about it.
I think I might get it one day if I dont get a hand rest.
Because it already starting to hurt.
omg ;O

But lets not talk about it for now ok :)
Its nothing. For now.
I just feel like complaining about it.

Anywho, My life is kind of a boring one.
Im in the middle of the exams.
And Im here blogging.
I ought to study.
But what a few minutes here will do any harm right? :D

You know, holidays havent officially started
but Im already bored at home.
Its a yawn fest.

I sleep ALL the time.

Once, I woke up at 12pm, slept back at 2pm and woke up again at 5.
It was such a productive day for my skin cells to rejuvenate.
Sigh

I need entertainments!
Find me one wont you??

-__-"

Other than that, I dont know what else to complain about anymore.
Im just tired.
I want to graduate and run away from Msia and everyone.
haha
inst that just mean?

I want a scholarship.

Which is shit hard to get.
If i get a scholarship, I can fly next year. :) :)
If not, two years from now.

Anyone wanna sponsor?

Study time.
Adieu bitches :)

Heartache

Wow.

Thanks for that.
It hurts.
But life fucking goes on.

Ouch.

prom, dresses, exams & stress

Im going for prom.

Like finally I decided what the heck :D lalala
Im going dateless but with a bunch of awesome friends.
And someone is nice enough to give me free ticket but I refuse so he wants to sell it for half price or less. Maybe I should just stick with the free part? haha I would to if Im desperate. Which I should be after paying for a dress. as well as Im so dry out of cash! grr

I have to start scouting for dresses :O
Omg. Do I have time? I have exams coming up and prom is like right after exams.!
STRESS.

Im so starting shopping tomorrow. Need to bring some girly friends though. :/ lalala
Im excited for prom. Woot.

Black or Red? Hmm.

Oh well. Have to deal with it tomorrow.

Adieu bitches ;)

Psp, college, trip, and life

Im just so broken hearted.

My psp is not working. And worst, I've been depending on it for college because now that syllabus are all done, im stuck with nothing to do. :( Worst timing la idiot.

Just as I thought Im happy with how things are, this happened. Yer. Life no?

So a quick update of my life.

College :

It had been one of the best times I had. Assignments seem to tone down already as lecturers are now more focus on the final exams. Friends had been awesomely supportive for my lack of preparation for most of my presentations and became my heroes when I needed them the most.
I repay them by making cute gifts for them with big fluffy bows and ribbons and bars of chocolates. So cute la ok. Im proud of it. Taken me the night to finish 3 of them ;D But it was worth it to see the look on their faces. :) I should do more of this. Very satisfying indeed.

Prom is coming up soon. While many begged me to go, some even willing to help me pay a little for my ticket. But yea. Still contemplating. I dont know. :( I want to. But I dont want to also.

Graduation. Not mine but most of my friends. Im attending that for sure :) The last time I'll see you all before everyone of you leave me behind here. *tears*

Another 6 more days of classes before exam and sem break baby. There's class party at the end of class, I wonder are booze allowed? HAHA -.-" everyone want to bring them.

Home:

Life at home is pretty much the same as it is. Im aiming for a dvd player now as Im getting bored with nothing to do. I want to watch more series shows as Im lacking of my doses of them.

Other than that, Im broke, When am I not right? Its the end of the month though, next bank transaction in a few days ;D

Trip update:

I dont know if its even happening at this rate. I have to change the date as some people are flying off to sabah early july. So thats a bummer. So I dont know. Maybe just a trip to pd? -.-"
I really dont know. I have some friends who are organizing a trip to redang for rm380 plus for 3d/2n thing.

lalala. I will make some calls for some reservation and what not. Problem is, are there still people who wanna go. I do. ;/ yer

Me:

Im pretty much the same but different. HAHA bodoh. Im just like that la. Im lazy to type already la.

Adieu bitches :)

Of drowing with assignments

Oh no!
My 1000 words had crashed back to ZERO.

I need 2500 words.
OMG LAH.

I can't finish it in time.
Shit.

Of lost phone, fucktard, finals and parties

Hello people.

How are you today?
Did you tell the people that matters, you love them yet?
Hmm?

Im in a better mood today. Yesterday was crap as had some drama with some rempit dude about my phone which I ended up not getting. The fuck thing is, he told me to wait for him at one spot, he ended up NOT showing and throwing my sim away. And a smart ass he is, refuses to give his number when I asked for it. So end of two days of waiting, I didnt get it back.

I was so devastated. I was so crushed. I was just so yer. He's a fuck hole.

I dont want to talk about this anymore cause it hurt every time. SIGH.

Worst, I dont have a number now yet, because my daddy is SUPER LAZY to take me there. Fyi, I need him to approve cause my number is under his account, therefore I cant take it myself which is stupid cause I feel 5 again. -.-"

About phone, Im just gonna use whatever phone people gonna donate to me.

I want a new one, but I need other stuff too. So, phone will be on hold. Grr.

Fuck my life la.
Oh cooler, FML.
Thats like what the whole world on facebook is currently using.

Other than that, my final presentation is coming REAL soon, and Im so not prepared. My 2500 words essay is like still stuck at 1000 -.-"

Even yesterdays' presentation I was catching some train, I finished talking under 5 minutes when I was suppose to talk in under 10. But mine was awesome. So its ok I think. ;D

Other than that, I have been canceling so many party invites cause Im an ass and I study all the time. HAHA.
-.-
I really wanna say yes to the pitbull babi dude, but come on. this weekend. ISUs man :( Sucks to be me. It kills me to say no to free tickets. HAHA
And to the the other party or what not, cant come honey. :( sorry.

Lalala.

Im sad. Im happy. Im satisfied. Im dissatisfied. Im human.

:)

Adieu Bitches

of mental breakdown

Seriously, I am such a mess. I dont feel like what ever that I am doing is right. I feel like everything is wrong. I feel everything I do is a mistake that will haunt me for life.

I really do have a lot on my shoulder right now. Assignments are just piling on one another waiting for me to start doing, but I just cant. I now know I have to solve to blockage I have in my head, to make everything flow again.

Im drowning in my own thoughts.
How can I swim away from it?

I need your help. I need you. Why can't you just stop and care.

It is hard. People who know me knows how I am under stress or under a hell of pressure. I am not productive under stress.

They say life has to get worst before it gets better. But Im starting to wonder if it ever does.

Of emotions & reality

I feel as if Im too lazy, too sluggish, too slothful.
Use whatever terms you must,
to do anything.
I just feel numb.

When I laugh, I laugh without feeling it.
When I smile, it doesnt reach my eyes.
When I look at you,
I am just looking at the space between us.

I dont know.
Maybe because this month is tough for me.
With a harsh college life
and an even harsh life,
I just dont feel like doing anything,
except sleep.
Hell I've been sleeping ALOT.

Im super craving for cupcakes :(
Boohoo.

I am just so tired of having so many assignments on my shoulder,
I just dont feel like doing any of them

oh how I wish life was not this hard.
But by whining and complaining,
It wont bring you far.

On a positive note,
SEMESTER BREAK IN A MONTH :D

Of updates and quickies

One.
My week have been a mixed of exhaustion and emotional crisis.

Two.
My torture has just begun.

Three.
Semester is ending in less than a month :D

Four.
All hell break lose, I have tons to do in this 3 weeks.
TONS.

Five.
I cut my hair,
I have different input to it every time I look at the mirror.
Input 1: Ah fuck. I look like a massive downer with a weird hair looking la-la
Input 2: Oh yay. I have a different look and I look fresh.

-_____-

Six.
The updates on the trip will be put on hold.
with my assignments and exam, I dont think I can cope.

Seven.
You're pathetic, because you are. Since I know you.
I am so sorry for you.
You know who you are, liar :)

Eight.
I am excited of I dont know what. haha.

Nine.
You showed up with a candle and ice cream in the middle of the night.
Say aww. :) ♥♥

Ten.
I better be off to work.
Im highly unpaid.

oh Eleven.
I think I want to work during my sem break.
To earn moneeyhh.

Adieu bitches

Emotions, weather & haircut?

Honestly speaking,
I feel like Im anti social right now.
I feel lazy to go out and to make plans.
I dont feel like using facebook anymore.
I feel like a downer :(

It is just a phase.
The better reason : My period is coming.
Sigh

Did anyone notice how hot the weather is?
And how annoying that a storm will hit later in the evening.

Other than that, my hair is looking kind of crappy.
Time for a snip.

Will update some other time.
Feeling a little downer.
Boohoo.

Updates & trip details

Hey.

I've not been updating because one, Taylor's pc are shitty and I mostly spent my time researching on things.

The main thing Im researching on now is about the group trip on July.

Yes.

Here are some details I can provide for now:

Confirmed date : 2nd, 3rd & 4th of July * This is already confirmed and Im not changing it

Venue ( yet to be finalize ) : Cherating/ Pangkor/ Redang

Approx price : More or less rm300-400 ( +- )

Number of people : More or less 10 ( Will confirm soon )

Means of transport : Bus and ferry

That's the basic information on it. I'll keep you guys updated on it.

And Im trying to organize another mini trip on June 19th and 20th.

Probably Genting. Release stress after my finals yaw. :)

Wanna join?

Of extension & dress week

Grr.

I gotten an extension for my assignment. It is now due on wednesday instead of today.

Sigh of relief.

But wait, I have tons of other assigments! Grr.

I have to juggle all my other undone ones. Grr.

We have dress up week all week long.

Todays'theme : Twin day. ( dress up like your friend or as a group )

Im dressed in all black. In my black skirt and tank

Thats what we planned for it.

A groups of us girls are dressing all black. With eyeliners and what not.

Funny, we looked like we're grieving over a dead body.

First class of the day got cancelled.

Breakfast all around, and people notice that we dress alike :)

Mission accomplished

Tomorrow we have cartoon day.

Which is retarded. -___-

I wish I have my camera. :(

Can take pictures. Grr

Assignments time.

Adieu

headache, assignment & endurance

I am so stress up,
I have no idea how long I can take it anymore.

Really, how long can I hold on?

The good side, Im done with one assignment. The not so important as the other one, but atleast Im putting some effort to it right?
Damn I feel so light headed. Literally.

I face the screen too long today.
I cant stand it no more.

Adieu

♥

I miss you.
And you dont know how much I need you now.

♥

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Deadline, perfumes & expensive crave

Greeting earthlings.

I think I caught that phrase on Tv. Wonder what show is it from. Grr.

I have great news.
I am still not done with my assignment and it is due tomorrow.
Dead meat. Grr
This project is worth so much. I dont know why I dont feel like doing it. other things just pop its way and I refuse to put this assignment as my priority.

Ex A,
Im blogging despite I have less than a day to actually finish up this dreadful assignment.
Oh God.

Ex B,
I might want to go shopping after this.

Oh oh. I just remembered, I went shopping with my mum yesterday, and a perfume caught my nose. Grr. My mum was testing out Dior Jadore, -I hate the smell of it-
and I was trying on Miss Dior Cherie Blooming Bouquet.
And I love it.
Isnt' she pretty. It smells so sweet. Not strong where you can suffocate and die kind of perfume. And my mum said, she might buy for me. Grr. :D

Miss Dior Cherie Blooming Bouquet ♥

Other than that, Im eyeing this paris hilton wallet. Grr.

I dont know what's up with me and expensive stuff lately.

Adieu

Pest, food, dreams and goals

Hey.

Something is bothering me. I have tons of yucky ants marching on my table as if its theirs. I think I should stop eating sweet stuff in my room. I have to start wiping them off. Grr. It is so irritating to see them ants all around my table. Grr. What if there is more to what meets the eye? Grr. Disgusting.

I hate ants.
After pigeons of course.

So, I have no pleasant sleep. I blame it at the strong bitter coffee I gulp down just before bed. I dont know why I did that, but I did, and I can't sleep. Well, say hello to cranky me.

To make me crankier, my assignments are still on hold. Pending. Stationary. And she have been giving 4 working period in class to finish it, and I still cant get it done? Grr. What is wrong with me? It shouldnt be that hard to finish it. It shouldnt.

Then why is it taking me forever to get it done?

Aside from that, I have this thing in my head where it says, lets start a boutique. An online one and sell nice looking clothes and bags and perfumes. It got me thinking. It got me a little excited. And then, everything just when poof cause I know, it is impossible to do.

So that's my latest dream ;
To own an online boutique.

I even wanted to own my own cafe. That sells yummy coffee and desserts. Yes yes. It is still a dream Im looking forward to accomplish! Wait about 10 years. I'll be 28 by then. Grr. I wonder if I can achieve it. 28 feels to young to own a cafe. Maybe wait 20 years.

And so I blabber enough here. Should I talk about my disgusting eating habit where I dont eat when Im hungry? Well the only reason I dont is because IT ALWAYS SEEM AS IF THERE'S NO FOOD.
Grr. Im always hungry now. And no food.

I am trying to gain weight. Yes.

My goal ; 5kg by end of may.

But first, I have to figure out about the availability of food. Grr.

Adieu.

Its raining! Ayy. Its cold

Pssst.

So, I've done tons of research over the pass 4 months for my class-like wtf. 4months passed already?. Anyway, the theme of my final project for my psychology class is LYING. :)

So, after hell alot of reading and researching, I think I can tell a whole lot about liars and whatnot about it. Seriously, I find it interesting cause I did a damn survey about it and sent it out to students at taylors, and the results are pretty surprising. Like not one male said they do not feel guilty after lying. In other words, ALL MALES FEEL GUILTY AFTER LYING? I did not see that coming. When I was doing the survey question, I expected all males to have no guilt in them. But the results came back, and my my, was I shocked. :O

Grr. You know I have tons more to share with the world, -as if people can't google it Adeline -.-, anywho, Im pretty tired. Probably after shutting down, I might just sleep off without bothering so much of that hippo who is currently hogging my bed. Ooh yes, Im on a mattress on the floor. Shocking how nice I am to offer a guest the bed, while I do my work on the floor?

*grins*

Ps; Its 2am and its raining :O Cold feet alert! And frozen nose. * note to self, off aircond immediately!

Night everyone. Sleep tight.

Adieu

Ding ding, You're in trouble..

Hello there. Grr.

I just wasted about 2 hours of precious assignment time to do this blog. Grr. I feel like its not worth the time. Oh well, time that passed can't be turn back. Though, in the twisted world in my head, you can. And also stab and kill fairies; that if you want to know further.

...

Anywho, Its saturday already and yet, everything seem to be hanging;
stationary if you might say. I am damned. If you're lost, Im talking about my assignments.
If you needed the extra help to figuring what am I shitting about there :P

The best part? -There's a best part to it?. Im here still on my blog, second post! geez you say?
Its one of my accomplishment. -Its a personal thing.

To do list ( I've accomplish nothing since the first post );

• 7-9 pages essay
  
• Analysis of 15 graphs + research
• Research on countries

Oh help. Grr

-Adieu
( A whole lot of thank yous' to hamlet for this -.-" )

Oh no! Again?

Why hello there.

Funny that Im back here and wondering will I keep this up or just leave it aside and move on with life. 2 years later a new blog of mine will then pop up. Anywho, since I can't do anything productive with my college assignments and what not, I thought I make a new blog. so tada people, TA-DA.

To start off, I'm broke. Grr. It pisses me off that I can write down everything that I want but I cant spend on them because the lack of the stupid man made coloured paper with the weird man on it. Im pretty depressed over it, because to come to think of it, Im always broke. grr.

Money is just another issue.
I bet I can spend that much money in a day. Grr.
Btw, those money above aint mine. Found it at google,
though I pretty much dont mind having them.

Other than that, college's getting harder and harder to cope. With final project due in a month, and final exams in 2, Im just exhausted.

Friends have been awesome.

To that, Im off to actually start with my assignments.

To do list;

• 7-9 pages essay
• Analysis of 15 graphs + research
• Research on countries

Bummer.
Adieu