Heartache

Wow.

Thanks for that.
It hurts.
But life fucking goes on.

Ouch.

prom, dresses, exams & stress

Im going for prom.

Like finally I decided what the heck :D lalala
Im going dateless but with a bunch of awesome friends.
And someone is nice enough to give me free ticket but I refuse so he wants to sell it for half price or less. Maybe I should just stick with the free part? haha I would to if Im desperate. Which I should be after paying for a dress. as well as Im so dry out of cash! grr

I have to start scouting for dresses :O
Omg. Do I have time? I have exams coming up and prom is like right after exams.!
STRESS.

Im so starting shopping tomorrow. Need to bring some girly friends though. :/ lalala
Im excited for prom. Woot.

Black or Red? Hmm.

Oh well. Have to deal with it tomorrow.

Adieu bitches ;)

Psp, college, trip, and life

Im just so broken hearted.

My psp is not working. And worst, I've been depending on it for college because now that syllabus are all done, im stuck with nothing to do. :( Worst timing la idiot.

Just as I thought Im happy with how things are, this happened. Yer. Life no?

So a quick update of my life.

College :

It had been one of the best times I had. Assignments seem to tone down already as lecturers are now more focus on the final exams. Friends had been awesomely supportive for my lack of preparation for most of my presentations and became my heroes when I needed them the most.
I repay them by making cute gifts for them with big fluffy bows and ribbons and bars of chocolates. So cute la ok. Im proud of it. Taken me the night to finish 3 of them ;D But it was worth it to see the look on their faces. :) I should do more of this. Very satisfying indeed.

Prom is coming up soon. While many begged me to go, some even willing to help me pay a little for my ticket. But yea. Still contemplating. I dont know. :( I want to. But I dont want to also.

Graduation. Not mine but most of my friends. Im attending that for sure :) The last time I'll see you all before everyone of you leave me behind here. *tears*

Another 6 more days of classes before exam and sem break baby. There's class party at the end of class, I wonder are booze allowed? HAHA -.-" everyone want to bring them.

Home:

Life at home is pretty much the same as it is. Im aiming for a dvd player now as Im getting bored with nothing to do. I want to watch more series shows as Im lacking of my doses of them.

Other than that, Im broke, When am I not right? Its the end of the month though, next bank transaction in a few days ;D

Trip update:

I dont know if its even happening at this rate. I have to change the date as some people are flying off to sabah early july. So thats a bummer. So I dont know. Maybe just a trip to pd? -.-"
I really dont know. I have some friends who are organizing a trip to redang for rm380 plus for 3d/2n thing.

lalala. I will make some calls for some reservation and what not. Problem is, are there still people who wanna go. I do. ;/ yer

Me:

Im pretty much the same but different. HAHA bodoh. Im just like that la. Im lazy to type already la.

Adieu bitches :)

Of drowing with assignments

Oh no!
My 1000 words had crashed back to ZERO.

I need 2500 words.
OMG LAH.

I can't finish it in time.
Shit.

Of lost phone, fucktard, finals and parties

Hello people.

How are you today?
Did you tell the people that matters, you love them yet?
Hmm?

Im in a better mood today. Yesterday was crap as had some drama with some rempit dude about my phone which I ended up not getting. The fuck thing is, he told me to wait for him at one spot, he ended up NOT showing and throwing my sim away. And a smart ass he is, refuses to give his number when I asked for it. So end of two days of waiting, I didnt get it back.

I was so devastated. I was so crushed. I was just so yer. He's a fuck hole.

I dont want to talk about this anymore cause it hurt every time. SIGH.

Worst, I dont have a number now yet, because my daddy is SUPER LAZY to take me there. Fyi, I need him to approve cause my number is under his account, therefore I cant take it myself which is stupid cause I feel 5 again. -.-"

About phone, Im just gonna use whatever phone people gonna donate to me.

I want a new one, but I need other stuff too. So, phone will be on hold. Grr.

Fuck my life la.
Oh cooler, FML.
Thats like what the whole world on facebook is currently using.

Other than that, my final presentation is coming REAL soon, and Im so not prepared. My 2500 words essay is like still stuck at 1000 -.-"

Even yesterdays' presentation I was catching some train, I finished talking under 5 minutes when I was suppose to talk in under 10. But mine was awesome. So its ok I think. ;D

Other than that, I have been canceling so many party invites cause Im an ass and I study all the time. HAHA.
-.-
I really wanna say yes to the pitbull babi dude, but come on. this weekend. ISUs man :( Sucks to be me. It kills me to say no to free tickets. HAHA
And to the the other party or what not, cant come honey. :( sorry.

Lalala.

Im sad. Im happy. Im satisfied. Im dissatisfied. Im human.

:)

Adieu Bitches

of mental breakdown

Seriously, I am such a mess. I dont feel like what ever that I am doing is right. I feel like everything is wrong. I feel everything I do is a mistake that will haunt me for life.

I really do have a lot on my shoulder right now. Assignments are just piling on one another waiting for me to start doing, but I just cant. I now know I have to solve to blockage I have in my head, to make everything flow again.

Im drowning in my own thoughts.
How can I swim away from it?

I need your help. I need you. Why can't you just stop and care.

It is hard. People who know me knows how I am under stress or under a hell of pressure. I am not productive under stress.

They say life has to get worst before it gets better. But Im starting to wonder if it ever does.

Of emotions & reality

I feel as if Im too lazy, too sluggish, too slothful.
Use whatever terms you must,
to do anything.
I just feel numb.

When I laugh, I laugh without feeling it.
When I smile, it doesnt reach my eyes.
When I look at you,
I am just looking at the space between us.

I dont know.
Maybe because this month is tough for me.
With a harsh college life
and an even harsh life,
I just dont feel like doing anything,
except sleep.
Hell I've been sleeping ALOT.

Im super craving for cupcakes :(
Boohoo.

I am just so tired of having so many assignments on my shoulder,
I just dont feel like doing any of them

oh how I wish life was not this hard.
But by whining and complaining,
It wont bring you far.

On a positive note,
SEMESTER BREAK IN A MONTH :D

Of updates and quickies

One.
My week have been a mixed of exhaustion and emotional crisis.

Two.
My torture has just begun.

Three.
Semester is ending in less than a month :D

Four.
All hell break lose, I have tons to do in this 3 weeks.
TONS.

Five.
I cut my hair,
I have different input to it every time I look at the mirror.
Input 1: Ah fuck. I look like a massive downer with a weird hair looking la-la
Input 2: Oh yay. I have a different look and I look fresh.

-_____-

Six.
The updates on the trip will be put on hold.
with my assignments and exam, I dont think I can cope.

Seven.
You're pathetic, because you are. Since I know you.
I am so sorry for you.
You know who you are, liar :)

Eight.
I am excited of I dont know what. haha.

Nine.
You showed up with a candle and ice cream in the middle of the night.
Say aww. :) ♥♥

Ten.
I better be off to work.
Im highly unpaid.

oh Eleven.
I think I want to work during my sem break.
To earn moneeyhh.

Adieu bitches

Emotions, weather & haircut?

Honestly speaking,
I feel like Im anti social right now.
I feel lazy to go out and to make plans.
I dont feel like using facebook anymore.
I feel like a downer :(

It is just a phase.
The better reason : My period is coming.
Sigh

Did anyone notice how hot the weather is?
And how annoying that a storm will hit later in the evening.

Other than that, my hair is looking kind of crappy.
Time for a snip.

Will update some other time.
Feeling a little downer.
Boohoo.